Didn’t sleep again. I was up till 5am and out of bed by 8. My foot feels like I’m walking on broken glass, painkillers help, but it’s another thing to bring up at the doctor in a few weeks. Three different creams haven’t fixed it. Two are steroids doing nothing, the third one helps the […]
Cheesy Wins and Turmeric Fails
Woke up late after a crappy night’s sleep. My back is stiff again, and honestly? I’ve just felt weird in my own skin the last couple of days. Like I’m wearing someone else’s hoodie and it’s all scratchy and wrong. I did a tarot reading last night to see what was going on in my […]
Vodka, Therapy, and Well Wishes
Today started with therapy at 9am. Which meant a 6am scramble to gather enough water for a shower and to wash my hair. Normally I don’t care if I’m a sweaty hobgoblin while I’m working solo, but showing up to therapy that way feels unfair to everyone involved. Afterwards, I headed into town for a […]
The Cost of Helping
Well, the GOM has gone. I met every obligation I thought I had, and then some. I don’t regret helping. Truly. But I can’t do it like this again. Next time, the plan has to be different. It didn’t go well. We (I) had everything staged by the car, ready to load. But instead of […]
Little Wins & Lingering Edges
Solid sleep last night, finally! I started the day at 6:20am and honestly, just being able to say “I’ll take it” without sarcasm feels like progress. The GOM’s car is finally fixed, so that’s a win. But of course, there’s a twist. He’s meant to leave a cleaned site by Thursday at 11am, and I’ve […]
When Rest Feels Unsafe
Woke up at 7:30am with about 3.5 hours of sleep under my belt. No surprise, my body’s basically throwing a tantrum. “If you won’t rest, I’ll take your function,” it says. Fair enough. Motivation? Gone. But honestly, that makes sense. I’ve been daydreaming about taking two full days off to reset. Not some half-assed break […]
Survival Mode, Chaos Birds & Facebook Trolls
Let’s just say, today was a lot. I’m in survival mode right now. My mental health? Kinda circling the drain. I know exactly why, and no, I don’t have time to deal with it. When you’re the only one picking up the slack, self-care becomes optional … this blog included. And yeah, I know it’s […]
Sleep-Deprived and Spiraling
I’m not gonna lie, this morning hit hard. Day two of barely any sleep and I could feel myself unraveling. I was frustrated, emotional, and tired in that way where you can’t even cry… you just sit in it. Sleep is my regulator. When it’s gone, my mood drops like a rock. The truth? I’ve […]
Why Won’t Sleep Love Me Back?
Another 3:30am start. Again. This time, it wasn’t anxiety or a loud noise—just my brain deciding, “Nope, we’re awake now.” On the bright side, I did finally get the WordPress app working again. That little tech win actually lifted my spirits. I moved over to the travel trailer to start packing and writing my checklist. […]
When Everything Feels Off
Another rough night. Same 3am wake-up, even though I took a Xanax at 10pm thinking it might help me finally get a full night’s sleep. Nope. That disappointing mix of tired and wired is really getting old. I think the letdown from yet another person flaking on helping with the well hit harder than I […]