I woke up around 2AM again. Pain across my back, shoulders, neck. Familiar now, but still exhausting. My first thought?“Ugh, I can’t write about this again.”I worried it would be boring. Negative. Repetitive. But that’s the trap, isn’t it? The one I lived in for years, where I muted myself to make others more comfortable. […]
Looking back on May – A Monthly Review
May was a bit of a wild ride. Off-grid living means that everything takes more effort than you think, and this month reminded me of that again and again. But between the sweat, setbacks, and surprisingly satisfying moments, I’ve made real progress. Garden Wins (and Losses) The potatoes are looking good. I mounded them up […]
The Well, the Bugs, and the Breakdown
Today kicked off with hope. I really thought I’d finally have water. And to be fair, the guy did show up. He installed the plug, and I was ready for a small victory dance. But that moment didn’t last long. Turns out, the well system I was sold is a type that’s rarely used around […]
Back to the Jungle
I made it back home this morning. Some plants didn’t make it, others bolted or went to seed, but honestly, most of the garden survived. I’ll call that a win. The weeds, however? Absolute chaos. Even where I had barrier and mulch down, they’ve taken over like it’s their land now. It’s overwhelming, but after […]
Cursed, I Swear
I swear to Bejuebus, I’m cursed… or something On Thursday, while helping out the GOM, I managed to pull a muscle in my back. It was scream-worthy. Walking turned into hobbling, and driving? Forget it. Twisting, even turning my neck, was out of the question. I pushed through anyway, gritting my teeth to get things […]
The Cost of Helping
Well, the GOM has gone. I met every obligation I thought I had, and then some. I don’t regret helping. Truly. But I can’t do it like this again. Next time, the plan has to be different. It didn’t go well. We (I) had everything staged by the car, ready to load. But instead of […]
Little Wins & Lingering Edges
Solid sleep last night, finally! I started the day at 6:20am and honestly, just being able to say “I’ll take it” without sarcasm feels like progress. The GOM’s car is finally fixed, so that’s a win. But of course, there’s a twist. He’s meant to leave a cleaned site by Thursday at 11am, and I’ve […]
When Rest Feels Unsafe
Woke up at 7:30am with about 3.5 hours of sleep under my belt. No surprise, my body’s basically throwing a tantrum. “If you won’t rest, I’ll take your function,” it says. Fair enough. Motivation? Gone. But honestly, that makes sense. I’ve been daydreaming about taking two full days off to reset. Not some half-assed break […]
Still Not There Yet
Technically, the GOM’s supposed to leave tomorrow… but honestly? I think it’s going to be a few more days. We’re still not there yet. The good news? We’ve both gotten better at catching our frustration before it boils over. No yelling, no tears. Just quiet sighs and a lot of patience. I’m trying really hard […]
The Mental Load No One Sees
Rough night. No real sleep. My AC’s not working properly. Pretty sure it just needs a clean and the usual maintenance. You know, one of those tasks “on the list” that I keep pushing off until I have a window of time and energy. I’m hoping I can get to it before it completely gives […]