Didn’t sleep again. I was up till 5am and out of bed by 8. My foot feels like I’m walking on broken glass, painkillers help, but it’s another thing to bring up at the doctor in a few weeks. Three different creams haven’t fixed it. Two are steroids doing nothing, the third one helps the […]
Looking back on May – A Monthly Review
May was a bit of a wild ride. Off-grid living means that everything takes more effort than you think, and this month reminded me of that again and again. But between the sweat, setbacks, and surprisingly satisfying moments, I’ve made real progress. Garden Wins (and Losses) The potatoes are looking good. I mounded them up […]
Vodka, Therapy, and Well Wishes
Today started with therapy at 9am. Which meant a 6am scramble to gather enough water for a shower and to wash my hair. Normally I don’t care if I’m a sweaty hobgoblin while I’m working solo, but showing up to therapy that way feels unfair to everyone involved. Afterwards, I headed into town for a […]
Cursed, I Swear
I swear to Bejuebus, I’m cursed… or something On Thursday, while helping out the GOM, I managed to pull a muscle in my back. It was scream-worthy. Walking turned into hobbling, and driving? Forget it. Twisting, even turning my neck, was out of the question. I pushed through anyway, gritting my teeth to get things […]
The Cost of Helping
Well, the GOM has gone. I met every obligation I thought I had, and then some. I don’t regret helping. Truly. But I can’t do it like this again. Next time, the plan has to be different. It didn’t go well. We (I) had everything staged by the car, ready to load. But instead of […]
Little Wins & Lingering Edges
Solid sleep last night, finally! I started the day at 6:20am and honestly, just being able to say “I’ll take it” without sarcasm feels like progress. The GOM’s car is finally fixed, so that’s a win. But of course, there’s a twist. He’s meant to leave a cleaned site by Thursday at 11am, and I’ve […]
When Rest Feels Unsafe
Woke up at 7:30am with about 3.5 hours of sleep under my belt. No surprise, my body’s basically throwing a tantrum. “If you won’t rest, I’ll take your function,” it says. Fair enough. Motivation? Gone. But honestly, that makes sense. I’ve been daydreaming about taking two full days off to reset. Not some half-assed break […]
Still Not There Yet
Technically, the GOM’s supposed to leave tomorrow… but honestly? I think it’s going to be a few more days. We’re still not there yet. The good news? We’ve both gotten better at catching our frustration before it boils over. No yelling, no tears. Just quiet sighs and a lot of patience. I’m trying really hard […]
The Mental Load No One Sees
Rough night. No real sleep. My AC’s not working properly. Pretty sure it just needs a clean and the usual maintenance. You know, one of those tasks “on the list” that I keep pushing off until I have a window of time and energy. I’m hoping I can get to it before it completely gives […]
The Cost of Functioning
Monday kinda broke me. When you’re deep in burnout, it’s like your brain loses its filter. Every negative thought just slips in and sticks. Stuff that wouldn’t even blip on your radar on a good day suddenly feels massive, personal, and never-ending. And when there’s no finish line in sight, your nervous system doesn’t reset, […]