Didn’t sleep again. I was up till 5am and out of bed by 8. My foot feels like I’m walking on broken glass, painkillers help, but it’s another thing to bring up at the doctor in a few weeks. Three different creams haven’t fixed it. Two are steroids doing nothing, the third one helps the […]
Bearing Witness
I woke up around 2AM again. Pain across my back, shoulders, neck. Familiar now, but still exhausting. My first thought?“Ugh, I can’t write about this again.”I worried it would be boring. Negative. Repetitive. But that’s the trap, isn’t it? The one I lived in for years, where I muted myself to make others more comfortable. […]
Cheesy Wins and Turmeric Fails
Woke up late after a crappy night’s sleep. My back is stiff again, and honestly? I’ve just felt weird in my own skin the last couple of days. Like I’m wearing someone else’s hoodie and it’s all scratchy and wrong. I did a tarot reading last night to see what was going on in my […]
Vodka, Therapy, and Well Wishes
Today started with therapy at 9am. Which meant a 6am scramble to gather enough water for a shower and to wash my hair. Normally I don’t care if I’m a sweaty hobgoblin while I’m working solo, but showing up to therapy that way feels unfair to everyone involved. Afterwards, I headed into town for a […]
Cursed, I Swear
I swear to Bejuebus, I’m cursed… or something On Thursday, while helping out the GOM, I managed to pull a muscle in my back. It was scream-worthy. Walking turned into hobbling, and driving? Forget it. Twisting, even turning my neck, was out of the question. I pushed through anyway, gritting my teeth to get things […]
The Cost of Helping
Well, the GOM has gone. I met every obligation I thought I had, and then some. I don’t regret helping. Truly. But I can’t do it like this again. Next time, the plan has to be different. It didn’t go well. We (I) had everything staged by the car, ready to load. But instead of […]
Little Wins & Lingering Edges
Solid sleep last night, finally! I started the day at 6:20am and honestly, just being able to say “I’ll take it” without sarcasm feels like progress. The GOM’s car is finally fixed, so that’s a win. But of course, there’s a twist. He’s meant to leave a cleaned site by Thursday at 11am, and I’ve […]
When Rest Feels Unsafe
Woke up at 7:30am with about 3.5 hours of sleep under my belt. No surprise, my body’s basically throwing a tantrum. “If you won’t rest, I’ll take your function,” it says. Fair enough. Motivation? Gone. But honestly, that makes sense. I’ve been daydreaming about taking two full days off to reset. Not some half-assed break […]
Fuck It, Apparently
As predicted, GOM’s leaving date has shifted… again. Now it’s Monday. The catch? His site has to be cleared by 11am. The problem? I can’t clear his site until he leaves. So, I’ll do what I can, and if the rest doesn’t get done in time, well… he’ll have to deal with the consequences. I’m […]
Still Not There Yet
Technically, the GOM’s supposed to leave tomorrow… but honestly? I think it’s going to be a few more days. We’re still not there yet. The good news? We’ve both gotten better at catching our frustration before it boils over. No yelling, no tears. Just quiet sighs and a lot of patience. I’m trying really hard […]