Solid sleep last night, finally! I started the day at 6:20am and honestly, just being able to say “I’ll take it” without sarcasm feels like progress. The GOM’s car is finally fixed, so that’s a win. But of course, there’s a twist. He’s meant to leave a cleaned site by Thursday at 11am, and I’ve […]
When Rest Feels Unsafe
Woke up at 7:30am with about 3.5 hours of sleep under my belt. No surprise, my body’s basically throwing a tantrum. “If you won’t rest, I’ll take your function,” it says. Fair enough. Motivation? Gone. But honestly, that makes sense. I’ve been daydreaming about taking two full days off to reset. Not some half-assed break […]
Fuck It, Apparently
As predicted, GOM’s leaving date has shifted… again. Now it’s Monday. The catch? His site has to be cleared by 11am. The problem? I can’t clear his site until he leaves. So, I’ll do what I can, and if the rest doesn’t get done in time, well… he’ll have to deal with the consequences. I’m […]
Still Not There Yet
Technically, the GOM’s supposed to leave tomorrow… but honestly? I think it’s going to be a few more days. We’re still not there yet. The good news? We’ve both gotten better at catching our frustration before it boils over. No yelling, no tears. Just quiet sighs and a lot of patience. I’m trying really hard […]
The Mental Load No One Sees
Rough night. No real sleep. My AC’s not working properly. Pretty sure it just needs a clean and the usual maintenance. You know, one of those tasks “on the list” that I keep pushing off until I have a window of time and energy. I’m hoping I can get to it before it completely gives […]
The Cost of Functioning
Monday kinda broke me. When you’re deep in burnout, it’s like your brain loses its filter. Every negative thought just slips in and sticks. Stuff that wouldn’t even blip on your radar on a good day suddenly feels massive, personal, and never-ending. And when there’s no finish line in sight, your nervous system doesn’t reset, […]
A Twisted Kind of Self-Care
I definitely sleep better when I’m looking after someone else. It’s weird, but true. Caring for others calms my nervous system in a way that self-care just… doesn’t. Right now, I’m helping out my friend, affectionately known as GOM (Grumpy Old Man). He’s 82, sharp as ever, funny, independent, and still totally capable. But like […]
Sunday Sermon
Sunday Sermon is where I share interesting things I’ve stumbled on during the week—articles, ideas, or moments that made me think. This week’s topic is… The new wave of feminism I started thinking about this concept a couple of years ago when his sister said, “The trick with my brother is to love him just […]
Survival Mode, Chaos Birds & Facebook Trolls
Let’s just say, today was a lot. I’m in survival mode right now. My mental health? Kinda circling the drain. I know exactly why, and no, I don’t have time to deal with it. When you’re the only one picking up the slack, self-care becomes optional … this blog included. And yeah, I know it’s […]
Sleep-Deprived and Spiraling
I’m not gonna lie, this morning hit hard. Day two of barely any sleep and I could feel myself unraveling. I was frustrated, emotional, and tired in that way where you can’t even cry… you just sit in it. Sleep is my regulator. When it’s gone, my mood drops like a rock. The truth? I’ve […]